we allow ourselves things.

yes we allow ourselves quiet times
yes we allow ourselves to love
we also allow hate to flow just as it's opponent does through the very same vessels
we allow ourselves temptations
we allow ourselves depression
we allow ourselves loneliness

We allow our past to mold our future and identity

we allow ourselves our vision

we will only see things the way in which we choose to see them
If we want to gain the world, we can
If we want to lose the world and push those away that we love, we can
It doesn't take much but a change of mind
It takes a change of attitude, a willingness

I fell asleep last night too early because I was okay with my sadness
I could have easily stepped into the other room, congregated where the
lights were a'glowing and people cared but I chose, selfishly, to lie in bed
and let my unhappiness carry me through the night

It's all in how you make it.
Today I want to make it worth while, I don't like succumbing to the things
that bring me down.
I'm ultimately still searching for things. I'm trying to understand right and wrong
Adulthood and youth are somewhat blurred to me right now, there's no definitive line
There's no hallway you walk down and open a door and then you know you've arrived
at being a grow-up.
There's no handbook, no shoes you can buy that help to walk the right path

I apologize if I've seemed distant to you lately, if I've upset you
As I've entered this new phase in my life I am trying to create a balance
When you're given something you've never had before you have to find it's place
amongst the other things that take up occupancy in your heart and mind