I can't count the number of entries where I talk about things happening for a reason and God's plans being greater than my own.

About 30 minutes ago I had a talk with my supervisor and it turns out that for reasons business related to the company I work for I am being let go. I'm under the impression that since I'm the lowest on the totem pole so to speak, I'm the first to be let go. They're giving me 6 weeks max before it's official and I will no longer work with them.

When he told me what was going on I was in shock. I didn't know something would make that big of a blow but it did and now I'm in this position. Immediately I think God's timing is perfect, His plans are great....but gosh I sure hate not knowing whats going to happen. I will at some point know why I won't work here anymore, He will open up another door and a new phase of my life will begin. But once again, I hate not knowing.

I guess the hard part for me is that I'm already so uncertain about my future and what I should do with my life... sometimes it would just be nice to know exactly what to do and where to step next. Sadly I don't know.

Lord help me to understand your ways and reasons. Help me to trust you and only you. Help me to understand that you, beyond all things and persons, control this situation. I love you Lord, I lay this at Your feet.