I'm in a different place than I was Saturday.
I was praying today on my way to babysit and I was thinking about how God's will for my life thus far has been amazing and if moving to California for however long and for whatever reason is in His will, then my goodness His plan for me is spectacular! For instance lately I've been thinking about how if when I was little someone told me of what I would be doing at this point in my life, I would have been one happy kid. Yes of course I have been met with trying times, but in all honesty I am beyond blessed! So His will for me seems pretty darn amazing.

On Sunday me and Anna went to Newsong and the last song they played for worship really spoke to me. It's called Forevermore by Michael Gungor. The song says,
"Jesus You are Lord, You reign forevermore
Jesus You are Lord; You reign, You reign
You reign, You reign"
After the song was over the pastor came up and said, "You know, what if in every situation we just said, 'Lord you reign. You are King of this situation.'?
And he also quoted John 14:27 "...Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

No one really truly knows my heart about this situation and essientially I want to keep it that way, but it has definitely been a struggle for me. I have worried, I have stressed, I have been afraid. And yet the whole time He has told me to not be troubled nor afraid because He will take care of it all. Whatever the outcome, He's got it covered. Yesterday it hit me after that song and after Pastor Dale said that about letting Him reign. Gosh why wasn't it that clear to me? Why didn't it ever occur to me?

There is so much of me that would like to stay here where it is comfortable, where I have family, friends, routine, memorized surroundings and yet it seems that I am supposed to move. This is my adventure. This is my time to leave the things that I know so well and learn to lean on Christ for those securities.

Tonight I got a call from Jessica about the apartment we're supposed to get so I call her back and anxiously await the news. It turns out that Jordan, her fiance, put his name in for an apartment/loft in downtown Redlands. It's an old house much like those on our middle america mainstreets- we'll occupy the bottom half while the top is used by a girl who goes to the same church we'll be going to. The rent is about $100-150 cheaper than what I was expecting and it's within walking distance of all of the downtown stores.
He provided. All this time I was stressing about how much we would have to pay per month, the random fees that would rack up before we even move in, the base payment of at least $400 before our first month's rent, the list goes on. But He took care of it. I had no need to worry, I had no need for my heart to be troubled or afraid. All of the miniscule things that rack up in my brain shouldn't worry me, they'll be worked out. It's just such a relief. He Reigns, King of Heaven He Reigns.
At this point there is a list a mile long of the things we need to take care of- furniture, money for the rental truck, gas for the rental truck, money for the food spent while driving to California, and our jobs. But He is King of all.
Lord, I claim in faith that you will take care of this. I claim in faith that you will provide for us in whatever means and time is necessary. This is your beautifully crafted plan for our lives and I trust that You know what You're doing.

I cannot worry, I musn't fear for you are Lord of all.

Jesus is.

-betsy